NEVER TOO FAR GONE

Sade woke up to an empty room, the smell of alcohol still in the air and her head was banging so seriously it felt like it was literally going to burst. 'Well at least it was a great party I had' she thought to herself. Smiling at the thought of how many compliments she got over the dress she wore that accentuated her figure and the men drooling after her, she took a long look again at her living room realizing now that it wasn't the room that really was empty but her heart.

Everywhere felt so silent now and she could swear she was hearing her own heartbeat which had even swallowed up the sound of the bang in her head. She had been at this spot before and she hated it every time she was. That part where the party is over, the alcohol wears out, the men that were drooling over have slept with her, and she is back to the emptiness in her heart that she so desperately wants to fill.

She starts to get up, picking up items and begins the mechanical clean up as she had always done for close to a year now every Saturday morning. She smiles as she thinks back to the time when it used to be her friends and her doing the clean ups, but those days are gone, and those kind of people in her life were gone.  'They are boring anyway' she thought aloud. She began to laugh, slowly and stifled at first, until it gave way to what seemed a thunderous laughter which surprisingly gave way to uncontrollable tears.

She wanted to go back, it was all she ever wanted, but she didn't seem to know how to find her way back. Everything was a lie and she had lied to herself for too long that she was living 'the life'. She didn't want the drinking, the smoking, the sleeping around. She didn't want to go around carrying so much guilt and shame, not knowing what to do most of the time, living in fear. No, she most definitely didn't even want to be like everyone else, she wanted to be different in a good way, and be an example of the life people would hope to have. 'If I could just find my way back' she cried out.

The truth is that so many people have lost their way. Gotten mixed up with the wrong crowd, finding themselves doing things they were swore they could never do. And truth is that just like Sade, if we ever get to that point we realize that it really is never too late to go back. The fact that we even get to that point of realization at all is even a great start.  Yes, you can find your way back, just call out to the One who saved you in the first place. He is a Father. You really may have lost your way, but guess what? At that point when you cry out and cannot find the way, He comes to pick you up, carries you on His shoulders and brings you back home. Because the truth is you are never too far gone for Him to reach you.

Do these two things- Cry out to him now, go on to www.wafbec.org  and register. What better way to get back into the fold than opening up yourself for a 'restoration of faith' *winks*. See you there.

Oh and I am sorry I have been off for a while, I am back now and please need feedback on the new page outlook. Thanks. And an official Happy New Year to you all. Thank you for always reading. 

Miss Young.

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